Skyblader beneath the Shadowz

2011-03-06T21:13:00.000+08:00

Blogging is no longer a method I can use to express myself.

2011-03-03T22:56:00.002+08:00

Memory flashing by my mind like gold filling an all too small container, too fast for me to grab them. And not grabbing them fast enough only means eternal loss. Just need somewhere to throw this chunk.

Maybe, I should just give up trying to make you mine. It's clear, my existence is a hindrance to your path, whether I provide fruits to quench your thirst, or crops to satisfy your hunger. But be it throught the shadows, I'll still treeat you nicely, and do the same.

Animal Abuse

2011-02-22T18:37:00.001+08:00

I have been wondering, what's going on in the mind of animal abusers, and animal abuser haters. Influnece? Propaganda? Genes?
Has anyone not realised, animals are no different from humans? No let's not say that. Has anyone not realised, a puppy, a dog is an animal, but chickens, ducks, are also animals? Why, why do people go around swearing at videos of animal abusers, pictures. Swearing at them, cursing at them, promising they'll kill them if they see them bla bla bla. What, because they're killed? Because you saw how they died? Have you seen chickens being killed? No. Because from young, you only saw cooked chicken, and you eat it. You treat it as food, like vegetables. I don't see the difference in dog meat, or chicken meat. I mean, it's a natural human cycle till human grew brains. If we weren't so developed, we'd still be killing other animals for survival, predators hunt for the preys. Am I wrong? I don't see why cats, dogs, rabbits, hamsters, get special treatment over chickens, ducks, deers, cows and so on. Next, I don't even understand why they don't seem to figure out what the creator's intention is. So what, you see something you hate and you just
go ranting on it? I'd beg of you to take some time to understand the situation. What could they possibly do that for? To show animal lovers that they suck, to make people angry over their actions, in other words manipulating YOU, just because they feel like it, they want attention. Haven't you learned? More demand, more supply. WHY ARE YOU, FULFILLING WHAT THEY ARE AIMING, AND EXPECTING THEM TO STOP? WHY ARE YOU
FEEDING THEM THE MONEY, AND ASKING THEM TO STOP SELLING?

I won't be able to answer it if they just feel like doing it. There are situations that would affect it and sorts, but then again. It's not really their fault. If you were too blind to see what you're doing wrong, which is stated above, then they're probably just like you, being too blind to see abusing animals is wrong.

2011-02-04T03:28:00.000+08:00

It's alright... till my night self has woken.

2011-01-30T01:11:00.001+08:00

Weakling.

2011-01-26T18:57:00.002+08:00

Because fire can't touch water, and water can't let fire. Even if fire tries burning water, it just can't happen. Unless the fire increases, but what happens if there isn't enough oxygen, inflammables?

2011-01-24T22:30:00.001+08:00

Followed the path of every being, but never lived like one.

2011-01-21T19:34:00.002+08:00

I'm strong in many areas. Just strong in the wrong ones. A simple peasant would envy, not knowing his true victory.

2011-01-18T17:07:00.001+08:00

Half expecting your destruction, half expecting all I've ever wanted.
Half hoping for devastation, half hoping for what I've been waiting for.

2011-01-15T23:19:00.002+08:00

I didn't promise her those stuff, I didn't give her promises. I don't wanna lie. I have no idea what will happen. The feeling's there, idk whether it's physical or not. Idk whether it was under the effects of delusional teenage love. Everything would be fine but... what if?

It wasn't.

She is everything.

I'd die without her.

I haven't treated any girl this way... have I? It was just different. She could very well be sleeping next to me 10 years down the road, or be my typical employer 5 years down the road. Or maybe just 2 people on either ends of the world.

2011-01-15T17:23:00.000+08:00

And what differs me from him, is I've tried.

2011-01-15T15:36:00.003+08:00

It has evolved to the era where you can't say anything right. Saying something nice for example till death do us part, you are my world, ill nver forsake you, you are my priority just means you're a sweet talker, a liar, a playboy, whatever.

Saying something OTHER than those or similar, simply means you're not sweet, you suck with words, you're not romantic, whatever.

Don't see why I should be playing a game heavily reliant on luck, and the consequences of losing are fatal.

2011-01-15T15:08:00.003+08:00

Involving everyone but affecting only me?

At first it was a game, you had many or one try
But then I unlocked the last stage, and there was no lie
It was over, gone was my life
And now Me, hanging around is just rife

2011-01-15T09:23:00.003+08:00

What dream did I have last night? A dream? Did I have a dream? I haven't had dreams in awhile. Dream.. Should I dream? Should I control my dream? Dreams..

2011-01-15T07:50:00.002+08:00

Feel like isolating myself, go back to the gaming and programming business, drop out of school, hit life the other way.

Cast my cares on the lord for the relief I can't have,
cast my cares on the games for the relief I will have.

2011-01-14T16:50:00.001+08:00

The moment when you explode, when you've tried to hold it in for so long, and everything goes wrong. Because you either either held it for a second too late or a minute too early.

2011-01-12T18:34:00.003+08:00

I'll tell you you're ugly. But I'll still love you.
I'll tell you you're bad. But it doesn't matter.
I'll tell you you're weak. But I'll be your pillar.
You'll be complete, because of me, and I'll live, because of you.

2011-01-12T18:08:00.000+08:00

Fuck the world. I'm doing it even if I have to do it alone.

2011-01-12T18:01:00.002+08:00

I've been on the same spot for way too long, as many others have. Some crossed, some fell, some just stayed. Guess I'll just have to jump, they all tell me I can. The only thing holding me back, is no one's telling me I'm strong enough. They just tell me I can.

2011-01-10T19:26:00.001+08:00

ding booomsz snap dong.

2011-01-09T23:16:00.001+08:00

I wasnt feeling cold, it was just the beginning of hell. Havent i heard it enough? The better the worse it is?

2011-01-08T23:26:00.002+08:00

Back then, I may not have seen the world, may not have a life, may not have gone through a lot, but back then I was happy. Happy in my own circle. It may be bad, may be addictive, may be wrong, or may not be considered to have a life. But I was happy, at least there's something to look forward to, there's nobody that left an impact, everybody just came and go. I started to live my life, and everything started to go wrong.

2011-01-08T22:15:00.001+08:00

Troubled soul whose story untold, walks with a stroll, down the row, people's thoughts polled, he went down low. A troubled soul.

2011-01-08T16:26:00.001+08:00

I've been using skyblader as a screen name for... 4years+... Time for a change? How about Necro or TheReal[TR]? Hmm..

2011-01-08T15:18:00.001+08:00

"If a girl admits that she likes you, know that it took her every ounce of courage she has. Idiot, don't take her for granted."

It's my principle, simply because it's hard for me to even do it.

2011-01-08T02:04:00.002+08:00

Math

Positve + Negative = Negative
Negative + Positive = Negative
Positive + Positive = Positive
Negative + Negative = Positive

In reality however, it's this way for me

Positive + Negative = Negative
Negative + Positive = Positive
Positive + Positive = Positive
Negative + Negative = Negative

I had fun this camp. It was, dope.

2011-01-05T21:07:00.002+08:00

Kinda forgot my birthday every now and then. Only reminded by those who remembered. But then again, it's just another day after all.

2011-01-04T21:50:00.001+08:00

2011-01-04T00:27:00.001+08:00

My greatest enemy is built in me.
It's been a long road, a further one to go.
We'll see who's true.

2010-12-28T00:26:00.003+08:00

Aunt: You need to understand she's doing a lot of things for you ...........
Me: Yeah, I've done a lot of things that you just don't know of.
Aunt: If you truly want to do it, you won't care if people misunderstand or whatever, you just do it because you want to do it, it's good etc. You won't care if people don't know.
Me: Okay.
Aunt: *A few chunks of essay*
Me: *Puts on headphone, blasts music.*
Aunt: If you don't do wrong things, you won't scared people say you.
Me(In my mind): Who's scared because of doing wrong things? I'm just not telling you all the things that I've done right, because I've done them because I want to do them, just like how you've said it :)

2010-12-27T23:51:00.001+08:00

I don't know if I've become a monster after today, but I like the feeling when people go on and on about something that you didn't do and you don't bother to answer them because you know it won't change anything, and then you pull out your headphones and blast the music, and leave them to fuck themself.

I'm gonna change, I swear, but this time. It's no more mr. nice guy.

2010-12-27T22:22:00.002+08:00

I can't believe it. My own mum. No, I can't believe it. Even as simple as not knowing what a word means, she doesn't believe me. She says I'm not trying, I'm lazy, I don't care. I had to cry, I had to shout. Only thing is, it changed something. She still didn't believe me. Instead, she thought I was dramatic. She thought I was exaggerating. She thought I ought to grow a brain. She didn't believe me. Such a fucking simple thing. I would've been able to forget such a stupid thing, if she didn't chant over and over again how I should've put in the effect, how I should've not don't care about her when she asked what that fucking word meant. Yes, everybody thinks it's a simple, like who cares? It's just the meaning of one word. Has anyone fucking told her, or anybody that lives, a son can be totally broken inside outside whatever, if the mom doesn't believe her son, something SO FUCKING TRIVIAL? Adding on to it, still have to point out how useless and how I'm not putting in the effort. Something discouraging, and something I fucking didn't do. Grief only because it's a simple thing. Exactly the point, because it's so simple yet she's tearing me down. What if it was something big? I don't wanna be in this house anymore. One day I'm gonna step out, and I'll try my best to never step in again, until it's mine. Fuck caring, I suck and I can't do it. Send me to hell for all I care.

And humans are always the same. So fuck them all.

2010-12-24T18:41:00.003+08:00

It hurts me so much when your parents love you and don't mean to do anything wrong but they do.
It hurts me so much they're trying their best, but they don't know it. And you try to change them but you can't.
It hurts me so much to know that if you were lifelessly following them, they wouldn't be happy, but they don't know until it happens. And if you really follow them lifelessly and one day they find out, they'll be heartbroken to know their mistakes.
It hurts me so much they're doing something they don't know is wrong, but if you finally tell them, prove them wrong, you'll feel good, but they'll be heartbroken. So what if you feel good? They're heartbroken. You want them to be?
I don't believe in retribtuion. It's bullshit. I believe one suffer is better than both suffering. I believe what's done is done. I detest retribution, it's bullshit. It's a positive feeling you gain categorized by selfishness. I grinded my principles into myself, and I detest that feeling. It's no different from doing drugs, it's all just opinions.
And, lastly I don't care if it hurts so much. I just don't want anyone to know, I don't want them to care. If they actually cared, wouldn't my efforts be down the drain? I'd rather do something selfless, not to attain fame or honour, not to show everyone, but doing it, because I want to do it, and then cry everyday, cry every night. Blog about it, and rant at an ant. I would feel happy, a negative feeling categorized by happiness. It's the same as self mutilating, except it's healing by hurting. But I wouldn't want anyone to find out... Or night cries will be true and all I've gone through is but a step back.

2010-12-24T15:39:00.001+08:00

Challenge physically, mentally but don't forget to come out shining.

2010-12-24T15:34:00.003+08:00

No more will I skate
Won't ever put on those blades
Won't ever go with the flow, spin or shave
It's just a moment too late

2010-12-24T15:28:00.001+08:00

Taken over by what didn't really matter.

Don't assume if you won't ask.

2010-12-24T14:46:00.002+08:00

Just take it to your heart and fix it.
Just pull it around and don't miss it.
It's not the first time, just mix it.
And in the end, it'll just freeze it.

2010-12-23T18:17:00.002+08:00

I don't know man, just let the moves define you.
Let the music define your moves.
Let you, define the music.

Don't cry because I'm not there, be happy because I won't hurt you no more.
Don't cry because I wasn't there, be happy because I will.
Don't cry because it's too hard, be happy because it'll get easier.
Don't cry because you can't express yourself, write because someone will understand.
Don't cry because you can't understand, be happy you're understood. Be happy, because you made someone else happy. Whether either knows it or not.

2010-12-22T17:28:00.002+08:00

It's not something you say or do, it's just something you feel
The brush against a smooth desire, the ETE electrifying burns
The feeling of inexpressibility, feeling of putting it in words easily
Just pray on one higher, let the heart live like a mayor
All is well, without being well

2010-12-18T14:57:00.002+08:00

Take a step back, fore' it drops on you
Aspire for height, but keep it low
Words are nothing, compared to actions
But they kill as much, as hell does

2010-12-17T07:24:00.001+08:00

Is she the one? Yes she is. She's it. But I'm not.

2010-12-17T04:51:00.003+08:00

Take a ride street 6
Nothing has changed
Only discovered
but nothing changed
if you won't dig
you won't find
if you won't die
you won't live
So take a ride street 6
Though nothing has changed

2010-12-17T04:50:00.000+08:00

They'll never understand if they don't want to.

2010-12-14T19:27:00.000+08:00

Welcome to this game, just step in and aim
Roll the number, get the odds are higher
It'll never be a two, just one or three blue
It'll never work out, scream and shout
but it won't do no shit, just play it neat
Maybe if you're lucky, you get one of sixty three
But if you're not, just keep your lot

2010-12-14T17:24:00.002+08:00

I've been trying to figure everything out, things that people don't notice, thigns that people don't care about. Things that people don't even know exist. Analyse things deeper than any normal person. A big fan of scientific logistics? No. Just good.

2010-12-13T22:44:00.002+08:00

Someone's treasure may cost another's life, someone's dirt may be another's life.
Just as how I'm dying so hard inside and no one will know, but when I'm living strong in faith, everyone prepares my funeral.

2010-12-13T22:35:00.002+08:00

I extremely hate the feeling right now. The kind that would make anybody feel like disappearing or just dying. But I'm not just anybody.

2010-12-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

Death, not influenced by beliefs and such, we'll just be empty nothingness doing nothing with no feelings thoughts or whatever? Or one day, you open your eyes into the world as another baby, as another person. You seem to know you lived on this world before, but somehow cannot prove it. Could you alerady have been living for thousands or millions of times? Just with no memory of the previous.

2010-12-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

It's been a decade, living on the streets
It's been good, the life giving pretty treats
Until the day, change, they all gotta
You thought it was hell, it was on the poster
You never really knew, till you walked right through

It was different, so so different
Maybe they were, as long as negativity burned
It became the apple, it tore a new life
It was starting to get good, there was no strife
Until the year went by, and you gotta go
You said goodbye, and you promised you'd drop by

When you got back to your cliques, things modified
They no longer worked out, like it used to be right
And then you take the time, to get it all back
And when you do, you realise you have to pack
This time you're going back, you imagined it good
But things always change, and you underestimated and put
It was all good, just part and parcel of life
And when you understand, it's just a replaying drive

2010-12-13T04:09:00.005+08:00

The day you no longer care about people stabbing you, it's the day you allow yourself to love unconditionally.

2010-12-13T04:09:00.001+08:00

And when the day comes, when you throw a knife no one else could catch, I'll break it.

2010-12-13T03:39:00.001+08:00

Jack didn't scare/surprise people by staying in the box, you shouldn't either.

2010-12-13T01:13:00.002+08:00

Yes, the usual inner sickness. Get that every time, either when the times comes to leave for thailand, or the time comes to leave for singapore. It's a strange way my feelings work, or at least for a human. It's unusual to dread something you know that you'll enjoy, and then dread going back when you're enjoying whatever you dislike, or actually like. It'll be okay if it's the first time, you don't know any better. But having flown there and back a few million times... I can't say so much for myself. Instead of feeling helpless about it, it's finally time to organize thoughts, and start analysing, why this happens. This is gonna be a little hard since activities change every half a year. And even the house.

First off, WHY SINGAPORE?

- FRIENDS!
- home feeling?
- Convenience round the corner? (In Thailand, you have to drive wherever you wanna go, even if it's noodles at a roadside stall)
-Yeah, main thing is the awesome activites with friends, the bonds built I guess. The ability to smell the air, go wherever you like, on your own. (Not to mention I don't own a car in thailand so I can't drive anywhere anytime...)

WHY THAILAND?
- For some reasons, I'm gonna have to keep this a secret. Point #1, secret.
- Holy shit cool activities? Ice skating like every day for many hours? Karaoke anytime, full blast, mics and a big room. Freaking large mirrors and big space? Yeah, motorbike riding to the max. Dogs! Dogs had been an important part of my life. Not so much now huh.. Yes, I LOVE the house. Like a mini bungalow that's cheap, 2 levels, big, with a garden.
- It's almost out out and out.
- Time with dad? Family, togetherness <3
- The feeling of knowing school will NEVER, and I mean... NEVARRRRRR reach you whilst I'm in Thailand. Means, slack like hell.
- No idea, but forums? I tend to spend time at forums while on the computer in Thailand.

Kinda lost my mood here cause I can't share the point #1. It's like the most crucial point :)

But most importantly, I'm able to live with it, because I'm guaranteed a return to either locations sooner or later. The only problem I have, is underestimating the amount of changes Thailand can have every visit. (Pretty much explains the different activites every visit). Or maybe it just has something to do with age.

2010-12-13T01:11:00.003+08:00

I dislike most freelance subject teachers. They're supposed to develop students in that subject by expanding and exploring from their box, but instead, they usually fit them into the teachers' boxes themselves.

2010-12-12T04:34:00.001+08:00

Hate the feeling when you like someone you shouldn't.

2010-12-12T01:16:00.002+08:00

The journey is through
and I can see the fool
Looking hard at me
With eyes dreary
It happened once
It happened twice
It was on replay
You get and pay
The experiences shared
Situations again read
Skilled in all
Master of none at all

2010-12-06T01:51:00.002+08:00

Abused my mind. My ability for critical thinking. Grinded logics as a kid. And now I don't enjoy my childhood. I don't want to be mature, I've seen how negative it is. Sticking to the stereotype, nope. No more.

2010-12-04T05:18:00.002+08:00

So there was this void
it was in the middle of nowhere
pulled over back there
of town and I caught a glimpse
nothing was in the hole
but it seemed like lots of gold
Imagination must've played my mind
cause it started to grow

They said let's take a step
and what happens we'll see
I followed them because they said
I'm a weakling, I couldn't see
I could see my kins
pouring out to me their feelins
No matter how deep we went
we could still see our friend
Then fatigue took over
while my mates were sober
My eyes went for
a vacation I never saw
and the next thing I knew
there was no one I knew

So there I was
Drifting in nothingness
Wishing how I should've
listened stayed on earth
My family I missed
the girl I kissed
Maybe someday I will
just drop and find the field
but until then I kill
my hopes and pray with feel

2010-11-29T07:01:00.002+08:00

Hurt yourself enough, so when you get hurt, you don't really feel it anymore. Proven, and tested, physically, emotionally, whatevertionally.

2010-11-28T03:11:00.001+08:00

Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can´t get you off my mind
Nobody knows ... I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can´t find
The courage to show ...
To letting you know ...
I´ve never felt so much love before
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out ...

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go ...

Night after night
I hear myself sayin´
Why can´t this feeling just fade away?
There´s no one like you ...
You speak to my heart...
It´s such a shame we´re worlds apart ...
I´m too shy to ask ...
I´m too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out ...

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go ...

And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out ...

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go ...

2010-11-22T11:07:00.000+08:00

"Boys are stronger than girls?
PUH-LEASE Can you bleed for a week and survive?
Can you squeeze 14 inch baby from a 9 centimeter hole?
Can you carry a 7 pound baby in your stomach for 9 months?
Can you take care of a child, cook, clean, and talk on the phone atonce?
Can you carry 10 8 pound shopping bags?
Can you go a week only eating salad? Can you face heartbreak?
Can you watch the love of your life be with someone else?
Can you burn your forehead with a straightener and not complain"

For something that has 64k likes on facebook... Yes we can... We just don't have to.

2010-11-20T01:02:00.001+08:00

Fuck it. There's always a sacrifice.

2010-11-19T10:34:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna be the next legend.

2010-11-17T16:03:00.001+08:00

Forget the worries. Let the heart do the talking, do the walking. If it fails, there's no point holding on.

2010-11-17T00:14:00.002+08:00

Guess it's just a break.

2010-11-15T14:53:00.000+08:00

All it takes is willpower from one end, and dedication from another.

2010-11-13T21:22:00.001+08:00

Words can't express me, so if you're reading me, it's not me.

2010-11-12T05:48:00.002+08:00

After watching child birth... I promise I'll be there when my wife gives birth... No matter what man...

2010-11-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

I have the intelligence, but I wasn't born to do so.

The perfection I never had.

2010-11-11T18:09:00.001+08:00

The game I never played.
The life I never saw.
The family I never regarded.
The dream I never followed.

2010-11-11T13:30:00.003+08:00

Fit my hands into traps that pulled away from each other. Can't expect to come out alive.

2010-11-09T02:17:00.000+08:00

Have I said you're beautiful before?

2010-11-09T01:00:00.002+08:00

I'm thinking.... Should I dedicate my time to programming, or getting a life? Good point, programming process is fun, get to create my own game/map, gives me something to do at any point of time. Bad point, I won't be able to, get a life.

Good point, getting a life, gives me a life duh... Makes me, normal. Bad point, may get boring without the right people? Or knowing a bunch of geeks.

2010-11-08T11:51:00.000+08:00

Daryl: Eh Weihan, you want bball at 8am? *Night*
Weihan: Okay.
Daryl: Gimme morning call.
-Next morning-
Weihan: Shit I overslept. *8.06am*
Daryl: I very tired. Nevermind. 9.30 we play.
Weihan:*Messages everyone 9.30 at Greenwood*
Daryl:*Wakes up, its 9.12* Eh Weihan, why dun you come my house slack thn we bball. Dam tired.
Weihan: *Suddenly appears at my bedroom around 9.40*
Daryl: WOWTF. *Flys off the bed*
Both: Slacks~
Daryl: K we 10.30am thn play.
Both: *Goes to crescent, full court*
Daryl: Eh message everyone 10.30 at greenwood.
Both: *Go to greenwood for 30minutes than returned home to slack*

2010-11-04T00:17:00.001+08:00

The perfection, I'll never have. The lace to the footwear, the sun to the greens, the breath to organisms, the moon to the stars, the clouds to the sky.

2010-11-03T15:50:00.002+08:00

‎"♥Its hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but its harder to give up when you know its everything you want.♥"

2010-11-02T05:49:00.001+08:00

Who am I kidding, nobody reads this piece of shit. Anyway, my decision will be made known to no one, things shall stay the way they are.

I do believe I'm strong enough and this is just a mere obstacle.

2010-11-02T03:37:00.001+08:00

How different am I, from the people I despise, from the beggars on the street. How different.

2010-11-02T03:33:00.002+08:00

I just gotta tell myself, she's just another girl. Self-deception. It's necessary.

Pain

2010-11-02T03:27:00.003+08:00

Seated on a throne, bound by nature. Each acquaintance and buddy alike, taking their role, piercing through life, one after another. Like no other. Less than some, greater than some.

2010-11-01T20:23:00.005+08:00

One of a kind... I wanna share your joy, Want you to share mine. Share your tears, share mine. Walk thru life's unkempt path hand in hand. Each belonging to one another. But if this story fails, it'll just go down into the black book. It'll just be the same, as any other. A moment of foolishness, maybe the next few generation's bedtime story.

It won't be the same, though life will go on, and the clouds and stars still cover the skies, the next time I see her. I'll be anticipating the wet grounds, the perfection I can never have.

2010-10-31T22:34:00.004+08:00

Just the way you are

2010-10-31T12:23:00.005+08:00

I think you're special, beautiful. Amazing. Simply awesome. The girl that's sweet, cute. Not perfect, but herself. Lovely, outside and inside. Her smile... indescribable. And I can't do without her.

But I'll have to.

2010-10-30T10:06:00.001+08:00

The only reasons why I appear blur,

To double check

Didn't hear

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2010-10-29T00:08:00.001+08:00

If I'm to say how mature I am from my view,
Im gonna say,
I'm more matured than the batch of ppl I'm with, maybe too mature.
However, I also understand not every kid wants his dad to be his friend.
And I also understand I'm not fully developed no matter how I think I am,
So there's still immaturity, no matter how little, and I just gotta know when to let it take control.

2010-10-27T19:24:00.001+08:00

Expected to walk through a door that's not open.

2010-10-16T02:52:00.001+08:00

I was just thinking... Has anyone ever thought before... Just think.... you know... People that abuse animals... They catch it on tape or pictures... They upload it.... I mean even if they don't have a brain, I believe they'll have haters, the authorities after them... But has anyone thought of their reasons? Motives? Even crazy, mentally ill people do things for reasons, whether it is illogical or not. So.. Why don't people just find out... Possible motives? Than rather being manipulated by them using human emotions to achieve their goal?

2010-10-13T14:29:00.000+08:00

And nobody will know.

2010-10-08T15:37:00.000+08:00

Stop it guys, I don't like her anymore.

2010-10-04T19:32:00.001+08:00

I like you girl
I know possible doesn't exist
I'd pray on a miracle
But if all's staying
I'll live with your smile
...Maybe it won't be best
But it'll be enough to be bright
for a second

2010-10-03T17:45:00.000+08:00

Why Am I doing this... Why did I do that... Why will I be doing that...

2010-09-30T22:47:00.001+08:00

Throw me into the oblivion, because I don't wanna feel it anymore, even though I can.

2010-09-25T20:49:00.000+08:00

There, I've said it. Now no one will know. Harsh.

2010-09-23T22:44:00.001+08:00

The best, are usually not noticed until the end. Because they do not talk
at all, but prove it all by their actions. They take all factless insults and give into to all won fights. And ultimately they unleash, and not even empty vessels speak. But that doesn't mean every quiet guy in your class is God.

2010-09-20T22:37:00.002+08:00

If I could down a vodka case before heading to school, unleashed my extroverted inner self.

Life would've been suck-free. If only, I didn't care how special friends were, if I treated the same. Each one and every, a friend at school, a friend I'd die for, and nothing else. No best friend, no girl friend. Get the results, get the achievements, get a job, give the life, live my time, join my father when it's over.

2010-09-20T21:30:00.001+08:00

When it comes naturally, the contents will come on its own, you won't know it. And they're trustworthy.

2010-09-19T22:34:00.002+08:00

Life's manual.

How to be, a good, or pretty much, perfect person. And how tough it is.

1. Now where do I start off... Right. You'll find a lot of selflessness in these few points. Selflessness is key to perfection. Perfection isn't reachable, but selflessness is on the way.

Now, selflessness. Basically, putting others before you. Hard it is, treating yourself badly for others. Keypoint here though, even ENEMIES. But it's definitely for the benefit of others, so if you keep giving in leading the other astray and stuff, don't.

Actions, such as keeping silent about a fact no one else knows. Maybe, little acts such as giving more of your rice to your buddy or family member because they just went for a jog and starving.

Or even keeping quiet about your heavy schedule while others rant on their not so heavy schedule. Comforting them instead. Now, the less people that you want to know, the greater the deed. And that is difficult, because people usually want to prove their good points. They can hardly hide it, drop hints here and there, to show that they are good. But is that necessary?

When you want to care for someone, be selfless, give unto others, you need to understand one fact. You shouldn't ~~ask~~ want anything in return. When you do something good, and want people to know, you just want them to be better to you, maybe remember and tell people you're a good person. Give a good impression, get rewards, etc.

Now, only the father needs to know of what you've done. That's good enough. He knows all. However, maybe I'm too mmuch of a scientific person, or others out there. You need strong faith, and trust to love a God that seemingly isn't real. And not being able to blame others out there, everyone starts with little faith and trust, and nothing is REALLY fueling the growth.

2. More though, are basic values. Integrity... Discipline... And stuff... further expanding one's own level in every area. Wooow that's hard. And very worldly as well. They come when you get your priority in him right.

Still, I can't end off if I were to go all on selflessness, loving others before yourself, do it and mean it, instead of doing for the sake of it. Its pretty much the basic thing, that affects the other values and qualities a human can have.

What's more, one should be happy, and at peace when giving. I guess that's about it, I;m off then.

2010-09-19T02:37:00.000+08:00

What now?

2010-09-16T23:02:00.003+08:00

One day, Im gonna get lots of money. Im gonna travel the world with my loved ones, Im gonna buy apartments all over the world. Im gonna give invaluable love to thm, im gonna giv invaluable care, like how they once have given it to me.

Im gonna be a singer, a dancer in both aspects, im gonna be an artist, im gonna be a basketballer, im gonna have to have a nice size, nice body, im gonna be a programmer, im gonna be a game creator as well, im gonna be a top gamer, im gonna be a martial artist, wadeva arts thr are out thr, im gonna be a professional, serial killer, but also a gentleman at that.

Yeah its all a dream. A perfect life tht would nver rich me, maybe would, if i put 150% right from this moment on. Its gonna kill me.

Maybe, inpenetrable by bullets, explosives, super strength, speed, mind reading abilities, experience, and stuff can just take the place of everything else.

2010-09-16T21:50:00.001+08:00