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Sunday, July 13, 2008

Memories of pains... What the future holds...

Oh well... GunZ just DCed me out and so.. I guss I have to start somewhere... before I play my basketball later... Sprained my thumb just now during training... Basketball training... Its just so sad... So confused... My friends.. all... I have been trying to be a better person, a less vulgarity speaking person... Can't understand why my frends are trying TO DO it... All the pure innocent ones... Has been hurt baadly by the few notorius people in school... Including 6A... Those bold people... Haizz... Recently after the chalet... My aunt struck 4D and won $180.. Gave me adn my sis $5 each... Then she bought those scratching cards... $50!?!?!?! Yes...Not playing harvest moon liao... because its sian and.. The event that happened once in 120 days... just went past because of an earthquake.. !@#$%^&*()_+ So.. Stopped... Its so hard to understand someone I realise... Its hard to understand mainly because I cant't remember everything to type out... The time is so slow.. Yet so fast! What can we do? ... I miss the past.. And I want to go to the future... That'll put my joy of primay schooling, the friends I had for 3 years? away... Those who are first will BE the last.. Those who suffer WILL enjoy... Those that serve others WILL BE served by others... And vice versa... I pray for my friends... Those people out there reading my blog... To change... The bad behaviour of schooling.. Away to a brand new kid.../ Adult... Its so hard to cope... My friends don't know me.. They still think I'm the same... No... NO!... They can't wake up... They enjoy NOW and suffer LATER... They haven't thought... Where will the joy come from? After 6A breaks up? All the joy... The friends.. The teachers? All gone?!? No! I don't want it?! But what can I do... I want to contact everyone... Gather once in awhile... But... How? My study group.. SO MUCH STESS?!?!?!?!!? Adults might think.. So young stress what stress... I'm not comfortble with the people in Thailand... I wanna get an SG girlfriend... But not soon... But even if I have... She can't follow me to Thailand... Where my father is 80% going to stay for a lifetime... Though we'll meet... But it'll still go.. No matter how hard... Its impossible for time to freeze... I really want to cherish all the friends now... Before its too late.. But some people don't understand.... WHY?! The moment I make a move, the clock ticks... The sky inside my world.. starts falling... falling all the way down..... Crashing.... Burying.... I cry in pain for what is to come... Can't... go on... The joy in school hiding my permanent joy at home, yet I want the joy at school.. No why? The Lord is the everlasting joy.... An explosion in me.. Life is unfair... To put you through happy events, only to take them away from you... THE WORLD IS A LIE! ALL IS A LIE! BUT I CAN'T BELIEVE! ONLY THE LORD IS NOT A LIE! But why?!?! why only him?? I can't find whats wrong? I feel better after posting.. Because I know more people understand me, Blogging is half a diary, half human being... I want the Lord to be my friend but it seems so difficult... I can create songs.. with the right tune when I'm sad.... Changing everytime.. I just don't remember... Even the words I'm typing are.... together with tunes... Determination... is something that helps you attain possible without the Lord things... Like the last time, I broke a clip... I tried so hard to no avail.. I kept trying and I got it... in time before my mum realises... But the impossible things, said by human beings, is possible with the Lord, You might ask, I want snow in SG, Why don't have? Because there's a part of you not trusting that it will happen.. Can you tell me, You believed with no doubt you KNOW IT WILL happen? I want to share the joy with others... I want to play games with friends... Someone to talk to me 24/7... No one except the Lord.. but... I can't talk to him?!? Its so hard... I want to make a study group... study... So stress... And now PSLE?!? ... My friend.... I don't know why... but he managed to say this.. I thougt it was meaningful.. but I can't take it that way... : Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened.... Something I can never do... If only 6A can go on forever.... It can't... I want to be with my dad.. I want Thailand and SG...... My father is so lonely... Every night.. I wll just reflect on my life..... I enjoyed the past... But its too late to realise that.... I'm so sad... Thinking of others... How they cope? Never offend a girl... A saying goes... But I don't really care... Girls will hurt you, they can't hurt you much.... I mean kids.... (when you're a child, and the girl) And my family... ITS REALLY BREAKING UP....Now I don't know... My mum quarrelled with aunt yesterday about the altar in our house, whose house and whatsoever... Breaking up much? And my mum is going to leave for Thailand... All I can do now is scream out so loud.. And carry on with the unfairness of life... John, For God so loved the world, That he gave his one and only begotten son tat whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life... One MUST believe... Matthew 5:8, Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God... I'm not done with blogging... but I guess I'll continue another time...

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