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Monday, September 21, 2009

theLoss

I thought you would do something more, prove tht im wrong, heal my wound. Nope u didnt, and i doubt u can. U made me feel insecure to hav someone like u, i cherish the days we had, i remember the storms we weathered. But whn u left me a big scar in my heart, along with the other small ones, i was afraid. And now im in the wrong for not forgiving u, but u make me feel unsafe, striking anytime, u made me afraid, u hurt me. I didnt knw it could cost so much pain. It almost killed me to say those words, but to protect myself i had to. Call me selfish, but gimme some time. we can still be frens, but not now.

always waiting. -8:56 PM

Saturday, September 12, 2009

havent been blogging for awhile now, gt hooked on a new game perfect world. haizz, i tink ill chiong hw tmrw and thn c how life goes on. quite long nver dota liaoz.

always waiting. -11:41 PM

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Just watched 3 good men. Is chinese lah, but direct translation is 3 good men lah. Damn sad sia, 2 out of 3 changed, the last 1 sad case. Wah the wedding seriously dam sad, thn suddenly change, very touching sia. :D:D:D Now playing a new game i surfed online, perfect world international, its like a duplicate of world of warcraft sia, gt race, classes, can customize to how u wan it, gt different worlds, can have multiple chars ,same windows, same skill tabs, except the story, skills, class, worlds not the same. soul gems, endurance for the items all the same, different name nia.
Ok gtg nowz, try to update my kaltra ltr.

I've found, only i can counsel myself.

always waiting. -10:46 PM

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

The memories, friendships, its all goin away. How could it happen... i srsly dunno how to say ... ill just stop posting today, posting too much bout the same goddam thing... i just feel tht smth has gotta be told, but idk how to tell it, idk if i even knw wad it is.

always waiting. -11:27 PM

sad

Now lookin back, man i realised, my life changed alot, and its gonna change alot more in the future. Ive lost my sis' past lifestyle, my great maids' friendships, my p6 friendships and some other friendships. Not to forget, my love life. Im gonna lose alot more... my parents are gonna go some day. i really dun wan it to happen, but i hav to accept fate. So many ppl envy me, they say ive gt a good life, a good family, and riches. ive gt virtues, but i beg to differ. i tink my life totally sux, and i tink ill go crazy really soon. its gonna make me cry , the sadness, is unexplainable... i srsly dun wan this to happen, why is it so cruel, why dont ppl listen, why is it so unfair...

always waiting. -9:52 PM

sad ...

Never thought, the day is coming soon. 25th September. Why must it happen? its been 5 years, the bond is created. its just sad man, why does she have to leave? I've been used to her, she's been used to this household. She knows how to do everything in this house, and shes used to my lifestyle. I cant imagine wad the new one will be like, messing everything up, totally unclose to me, not knowing how to do stuff, get scolded here and thr, i dun wan tht u knw, i dun. Its same as the other one, which they sent away after the bond is made. im really sad yknw, i dunno why, but i rlly dun wan her to leave. i dunno wad will happen, the awkwardness of the rest of my life. haizz, why is it so cruel man, id rather not hav another maid, lest the same happens agn, i tink im gonna cry. T-T. She been such a great fren, all my frens knw her.... why does she hav to go...

always waiting. -9:25 PM

The wrong is not all on me, it takes 2 hands to clap. If i chapsiao u u dun chapsiao me back, gt anything happen? im nt saying ur all in fault, but u hav tht bit fault even if mine is more.

And u ask me why i chapsiao? is becuz i care? Friends wad, they care for each other. U telling me tht all the friends, families, parents, police, teachers, they give advice they are all wrong?

My love for you is as impossible to lose as you falling for me.

always waiting. -4:54 PM

Monday, September 7, 2009

haizzz

Just played 1 dota match, srsly unhappy now. We play play play, owned, thn some ppl left. Some guy called thm noob. Thn i told the person in a form of advice, dunnid say until liddat right? they already left the game, they cant c, thn u say in ALL chat, the remaining ppl will be hurt right? 'u nt sayin thm but they kena, who happy? Thn he tot i kp him sia, thn say i oso nt say u, u care for wad?
Same scenario, if i take ur pencil becuz u quit a game, the teacher come scold u, u tell the teacher oso nt take ur pencil?
If i rape ur sister becuz u quit a game, the police find u, u tell the police oso nt i rape u?
He dun understand, he say i talkin rubbish, wad no link no link. Thn i say i want stop le, i dun tink we should continue, he keep say wad no link no link. ignore. Say no link no link somemore, i ASK thm if i shld explain why gt link? Thn they totally ignored the question and continued say no link no link.

Still have sia, he dun dare talk to me liao, keep talking to anthony bout me lah wad, special ah? brain gt problem ah?
U tell me, ppl gu yi let u c, they talkin bad bout u, u wont start convo with thm? I started the convo, i tell him dun talk to him bout me, wan talk to me bout myself in my face.
He kp my kpo? he talkin about me ffs.

Thn wah ant go side him liaoz, say wad, in the first place, why go care him? Care him becuz u dun wan him to be bad right? Giv advice right? they dun wan, thn nvm right? i mean, sometimes u dunno u do wrong, thn ppl tell u. So i just tell him nia, if he still tink he right thn nvm right? Wad till go on ppl dun care, mind wad ppl business. still tell me this is SG, ppl onli care bout money. Wth? u knw its becuz of these type of ppl tht make this world unfair. They dun giv a fuck abt others. They onli tink of themselves. How did this start? 1 ppl dun care bout others, ppl see very beneficial to oneself, thn follow, until the whole world liddat. song right?

In the end still nvm, thn still wan to say i wrong. Its nt tht i dun accept myself being wrong, its jsut tht i tink im right, if u wanna say how im wrong, thn giv reasons, if i can counter it, means im nt wrong at tht part. U tell me nvm, ill tink im correct whether im really correct or wrong. But ull still tink im wrong whether im correct or wrong.

Look at urself before u look at others ffs. U dun care only for ur loved ones. u hav to care for everyone, the right way.

Edit-

Knew u couldnt let it go, ant. after the game. Now u c me, like criminal, its obvious in the way u talk. Wadeva i do, its wrong in ur eyes. cuz im a criminal right? i mean, the world is urs to control, its all bout u and no one else right? well, u only hav to c wad wrong others do, nt wad wrongs u do. And u dunno whether is right or wrong, u just fix it in ur head tht im wrong, 101% wrong, can nver be right.
U still tink im a retarded fool tht cant take tht im wrong? i do man, i do. just prove me wrong. Cant prove me wrong block me? thts nt gonna make u right. thts nt gonna make u right.

And thn, i saw it as u sticking up to thm becuz their older,betta, superior. i tot u were a bootlicker. I said i feel tht ur a bootlicker, i might be wrong though. He jitao kp me like i just said u fucking bootlicker!

The reason with my mood is cuz im disappointed with u ant. Always say i cant take being wrong, i said i could if he proved me wrong. Being friends for so long, he immediately sided with an outsider and broke all ties with me.
Just becuz he doesnt understand wad im sayin, just becuz he tinks like a normal person, the type of ppl tht makes this world unfair.

I tink this friendship is over. after we talked after the match, after u showed the hatred, i realised. u werent a true friend at all, to tink i treated u like my brother, its causing me so much pain, becuz u were a great friend, i only saw the good points. i now realise the bad points, worse off a stranger. u werent a friend at all. ur a stranger from now on, unless u want to prove me wrong first before calling me wrong, or find out ur wrong. but i tink its impossible for someone like u.

always waiting. -11:36 PM

Friday, September 4, 2009

Kaltra

I made a new blog www.lone-assassin.blogspot.com. Its kinda a story bog. :D just go thr and enjoy, probably update everyday if possible. so... nuthin special today, but art was late today thn no one except like 5 came. thn ltr wrote sotry design blah blah, thn went to bball. i realise after so many months of nt playin bball, i suck at it. yea so.. thts bout it.

always waiting. -11:16 PM

Thursday, September 3, 2009

....

Ytd sibei dulan can... this guailan guy, gt some freakin attitude problems. It was like wtf? we were playin bball, and i pull my arm outwards, elbox pointed at side, he ram into me, thn he moved back, he call for foul. He call me cb and thn blah blah blah. I tink he bball fail or smth can. if someone stand guard at 1 position, u push him he will move back right, but if he dun fall, he hav to move back up right, thn if he move back up, u will kena push back right. Nan dao i just let u pass me shoot the ball? foul becuz i nver let u shoot the ball meh? Thn buey song, in the game, still push me like fck, thn i resist abit nia he foul. sua giv him. Lj wei, thn he come act act wan whack me my hand come out in def accidentally hit him, still flame somemore. Flame nt over, i admit tht 1 my fauly, i apologise, he come act act whack me thn say sorry, i say nvm. see he gt wad else to say.

Ytd was like anti-dota day sial. whole day studied with terra thn read gamebook. completed 4 books liao. Thn watched a 2 hr show frm 10pm, wah very tired. Yea thn today in sch, the chocolate, we go squash and open up, thn throw arnd. ffs, it looked like shit. it was flying all arnd until a cher saw it. stopped. yea thn today was interesting at sch idk why but yea... lemme list smth.

DotA players:
Me
Marcus
Zheng Jie
That used to be all
Thn
Teck Wei
Ancel
Wilson
joined in, cuz theyre it cher gt teach thm.
Thn
Klinsmann (played awhile)
Terence(played awhile)
Thn
John
Lutfil
Edwin
Kevin
Zaidy
Irwandy
wanted to play/played
Thn girls came in Oo.
YiTing used to play it,
thn Atiqah gt addicted
Melissa wanted to play
Terence influenced Yuhaila.
DotA players grew frm 3 in our class. omfg..
in total 18.
O_O

always waiting. -2:36 PM

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

tRuSt

I've trusted the wrong person...
You're not a good person, u never were.
and I thought our relationship got better but
you betrayed me. Back then you threatened to disown me,
I felt the fear. But right now, I'd be glad to accept that.
You're not in control of everything, its over.

always waiting. -7:54 PM

Prank call omg.

Ytd, it was night time lah. My sis was in the room, thn i was thr too. Thn she tot of pranking OUR house, and she wrote down wad to say. And this was the conversation.

My aunt: Hello?
My sis: Hello, This is Sally speaking from MacDonalds. Can I speak to Miss Lim?
My aunt: May I ask what is this regarding?
My sis: Oh, your order will be delayed
My Aunt: By how long?
My sis: 1 hour due to the motorbike breaking down but it will be fixed soon.
My aunt: (shouts out) DORISA! U ORDER MACDONALD AH? DELAY LEH.
Ah can we cancel the order?(says to my mum, aiyoh so long ownself go buy liao lah)
My sis: Ok
Phone conversation ended.
My sis walks outta the room, and asked why they call her,
my aunt said u order mac ah? got delay.
But due to my laughter, the whole thing blew :D

Ah yeah anyway, teacher's day sucked. Boring... thn went home, played the long lost game books, and dota-ed, thru the night slept at 6am. So, not much anywayz.

always waiting. -11:54 AM

the one who waits.

Name:Sky
Bday:05/01

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