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Tuesday, July 27, 2010

One day, when I ever find the person I love. I'll promise, to give all I have, because I can't rely on no one else.

always waiting. -9:31 PM

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Crushed, I picked myself up. There wasn't a speck of light in the darkness except the ray of the torch. Governed by fear, my body moved on its own towards the end of the spectrum. The rain only made it worse. I was sure that thing out there was still coming after. I was even more sure, if I didn't reach safety anytime soon, the blizzard would freeze my muscles.

There it was. Safety. "tch... thumb," I could've expected that trip. Which hero actually got to safety without a fight. Then again, I could've predicted it would be right behind me, its roar blowing any chill left in my body away. Then after I would defeat it and race to safety. Well, it didn't go as expected.

"Groooooorrr,"the beast howled in the dead atmosphere. I had to think fast. It hurled itself at me. Great thing I followed my instincts and took a turn. I grabbed the nearest shard and made a crack in the ground. The next thing I knew, the whole mountain was falling.

Crude. It seemed for eternity I laid there, allowing the coldness to numb and bite into my flesh and strength. It was darkness, it always was. Somehow unexpecting strength was regained to create enough heat, breaking the chunk of human ice. What laid around under that faint splinter of light were masses of rock-shaped frozen liquid.

I would've died out there. It was cold. God, it was extremely cold. I'd lost my way and like every human, required supplies to live on. I wondered how I'd even made it here. I was never able to withstand such cold. The only reassurance I had was, there was no life around. Not even the beast.

With that, I'll set on my journey, to whatever life has in store for me.

always waiting. -1:12 AM

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

This world, used to be a perfect place. A beautiful place. There was nothing wrong. No sadness, no nothing. The worst thing that anyone ever did, was to make brains for humans. Then people began to create currency. That's when there were poor and rich people. Couldn't they just work together, maybe doing more, maybe doing less. Being selfish created the first problem. So calculative for what? The human brain began to think its unfair. Big deal. Everything they had didn't even come from them. What are they fighting for? Then they began divinding themselves. Thinking they had a right over some land or some rules making equal portions. Why can't live together? Like some kids fighting over some toy their parents bought for them. Its not even theirs to begin with. Then further down the road, they start inventing fucking big toys. Guns.... missiles.... nuclear? Inventing stuff to kill themselves. Fighting over what? Maybe a car. At the end of the day, who really gains? Bullshit. All the negative stuff left in the world... Created by what? Humans. Its what made the world unfair in the first place. When it was fair, people thought it was unfair, and started making the world unfair, and then thought it was fair. Go through a number of bullshit rules. Then you're all on your own. Which 2 people every stayed together forever? Creating relationships, building friendships. What's the point? What's the point of even surviving in this world, when you have to either work extra hard, otherwise u wont gain anything. Great. Gain something, and leave it on earth when you go. Everybody has to leave one day. All the sadness...

But, we can all do something for our special ones before they leave. That's what I'm gonna do for my parents. Love them. No matter how naggy or unreasonable or whatever. You guys, might've thought parents are hateful, i want other parents, my parents are unreasonable. Yes they might be. Maybe cuz theyre old. Maybe its becuz of stress. Maybe, theyre just too caught up with wad theyre tinking. But theyre the ones, that went thru the hard labour to keep u alive. Worked hard to support u, giv u ur allowance until ur old enough to take care of urself. Maybe theyre really heartless. they left u whn ur young. they threw u to somebody else. but its okay, theyre nt arnd for u to show ur love to. Id say my parents are unreasonable. they dunno what were tinkin. they nver try. at least my mum didnt. but still, if i dig my heart, my memories, im very sure i can find those little or big kind acts theyve done/shown to me all my years in living. they loved me. even if we cant c, im sure if i was in danger, theyd giv their all to help me, save me. Theyve been selfless, despite our temper, our childishness whn young. Its our turn to show the same selflessness and to care fer thm, nt becuz of what theyve done, but becuz of love.

So from this day, im nt gonna touch games. or at least ill try very hard not to. Its bad enough stuff in the world u work for dun get u anything in wadeva afterlife thr is, gaming doesnt get u anything in the world either. im gonna work hard, and giv my parents' the life they deserve. Born naive, brought to this world, experienced hardships as kids, met each other. Married, had me and my sister. Worked very hard to give us a comfortable life. Leaving soon, thinking of tht very small part of the universe. Worked all their lifes. Im gonna let thm enjoy. No matter how short it is for thm. Ill give my best, although all these years ive nver really tot bout this srsly, just put it off becuz i tink theyre always thr. even though i knw theyre goin. i just dun giv a fck. but thts nt gonna happen. cuz i knw, whn the time comes nearer, and they go. Ill be the one sitting by their deathbed, crying everything i hav out, tinkin of all the good and bad times we had. But tht wouldnt do anything, and ill live with regret for the rest of my life. I knw, they wont want much. They dun expect anything. Maybe hoping for a nice life, hoping for us to love thm back. But they don expect anything. Its called selflessness. I knw, even if i cant work hard enough, even if thrs not enough time, ill giv thm the tht love, and theyll already be overjoyed. Going in peace. And thn i'll giv the same love to my kids if i do have thm, and whatever happens, ill leave whn my time is up, peacefully.

Revenge wasnt made to make ppl feel gd, but it was made to make ppl feel bad if it cant be taken or hav been taken on. Forgiveness was made nt to let evil ppl run scot free, but to put urself at ease and nt to affect urself because of someone else's misdeeds.

always waiting. -7:16 PM

the one who waits.

Name:Sky
Bday:05/01

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