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Friday, December 24, 2010

It hurts me so much when your parents love you and don't mean to do anything wrong but they do.
It hurts me so much they're trying their best, but they don't know it. And you try to change them but you can't.
It hurts me so much to know that if you were lifelessly following them, they wouldn't be happy, but they don't know until it happens. And if you really follow them lifelessly and one day they find out, they'll be heartbroken to know their mistakes.
It hurts me so much they're doing something they don't know is wrong, but if you finally tell them, prove them wrong, you'll feel good, but they'll be heartbroken. So what if you feel good? They're heartbroken. You want them to be?
I don't believe in retribtuion. It's bullshit. I believe one suffer is better than both suffering. I believe what's done is done. I detest retribution, it's bullshit. It's a positive feeling you gain categorized by selfishness. I grinded my principles into myself, and I detest that feeling. It's no different from doing drugs, it's all just opinions.
And, lastly I don't care if it hurts so much. I just don't want anyone to know, I don't want them to care. If they actually cared, wouldn't my efforts be down the drain? I'd rather do something selfless, not to attain fame or honour, not to show everyone, but doing it, because I want to do it, and then cry everyday, cry every night. Blog about it, and rant at an ant. I would feel happy, a negative feeling categorized by happiness. It's the same as self mutilating, except it's healing by hurting. But I wouldn't want anyone to find out... Or night cries will be true and all I've gone through is but a step back.

always waiting. -6:41 PM

the one who waits.

Name:Sky
Bday:05/01

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